Talent

If you know me, I seriously have ZERO talent at all. If we're using my siblings for example, I am the worst. My first brother, he is so so creative and so good in many things. Music, photography, haircut, drawing etc. My second brother has the skill of repairing the gadgets and he is so good in drawing. My third brother, he is good in humor since he was young. He is the funniest in our family and he is the most athletic. My fourth brother, he is so good in talking and giving advice. Whenever my dad asking for opinions, he seeks for him and ignore mine totally. My sister is very good in drawing and her creativity is so over the top. (and she is so smart btw). Her books full with her drawings but it's not mess at all. My youngest brother, he lately is so good in talking with elderly. 

Me, you ask ?

Talent is like either you were born with it or you gotta give birth to it. I'm the latter.

I am seriously not a smart student. I never get many As in my exam since I was young. All the As came out during those three big exams. I believe that was gifts from God. I am slow in adapting things in class. When teachers/lecturers ask questions on the spot, I blank. I keep quiet until they pick another student.

The keyboard in my room ? I always have the interest in playing piano but I never have the talent to play it. I learnt my ass off on my own to play certain songs. Unlike my sister who learnt to play trumpet in her brassband team in her campus, and my brothers who have the latent to play guitar by just reading the chords, I couldn't read sheet music, eventhough I translated it, still I couldn't play while looking at it. I just memorized the keys. I seriously have my hardest time to play with both hands. That's why I only play songs with such easy keys for the left hand. 

Drawing ? I am seriously the worst. Most of the times, I just practiced on my own to draw. I looked at my sister's sketches for few times, then I could draw it with little creativity of my own. My wedding dresses sketches mostly inspired by C.Siriano's sketches. How the model pose, how long the body, all after I looked at CS's sketches few times. My creativity rarely came out on it's own. I have to look around, google some, just to find inspirations or ideas.

In my family, I am the worst ever in sport. I never play any sports which make sense why I am the shortest (and fat). I could play badminton, but not as good as my brothers and my dad. My sister and my brother participated in taekwando. My brothers (and my sister) played rugby, badminton, soccer, tennis, sepak takraw, high jump, huddles, but I never participated in any sports in schools and university. Everyone have medals, I only have one from primary school which is tarik tali (teacher chose fat kids). 

I am so in love with dancing kpop songs. Rather than running on treadmill, I prefer on dancing, eventhough the calories burnt were not as much as running. It has become my hobby to dance. Sometimes, I monitored myself. Perhaps lack of stamina might be the reason why I look so kayu. I am not good as those idols but at least I tried ? I watches their videos few times, and I could move my feet the next day. It was fun beside burning calories.

Photos. Among my family, I am the one who take pictures the most. Every moments, I take pictures. However, unlike my first brother, he is SO GOOD in photography. He just used a canon camera digital, but his photos quality is beyond those who uses dslr. People said apple camera quality is so fking good, but that theory is no work on him. Give him any models, all photos taken by his hand are so fking goooooood. Currently he uses lenovo model, and the photos that he took are so superb good. I used lenovo once, it was crap. Even when I uses my samsung, out of 100, only one that was good. But, when my brother uses mine, out of 100, all 100 were so superb good that I couldn't choose which to upload. That kind of talent he has !

Communication. I am the worst as well. I am talkative among people whom I close with, but I become a stick around my relatives, non-close friends, lecturers etc. I am seriously not good in socializing. When my relatives ask something, I just barely answer them. That is one aspect that I want to develop more. To be able to talk comfortably and use the right word. Most of the times, I just throw trash words (T_T) which make me think, my mouth has no insurance. I am good in talking in sns but not in real life. That one thing I always mad at myself :( Plus, eversince I transfered from co-ed school to all girls school, I never make friend with any boys. I am no good in socializing, I told ya. Yes, I never talk to any guy in my campus except that one talkative ex-president in our batch. -.-

One thing I am good than others, I am a fast typer. I just typed without looking at the keyboard and I just touch any shortcuts to make things fast instead of right click here and there. /cough/ This is such a self-apraising. #givemechancelahhhh But my lil bro who type so fast said I'm faster. lol. I guess that's my self-developed skill. This is what happened when you were on twitter for 24/7. LOLL

I know this one idol who is known for starting everything to be a singer from zero. He is BTS' Jin. He learnt to sing, he learnt to dance, he learnt everything. To be honest, I told myself, sometimes, the talent is inside you and you have to figure it out what is inside there. For the new year, I am excited to figure out more my talent or develop them.