Not okay.

Cannot sleep ! Pretty sure not because of the caramel latte that I had just now. 

My heart has not been at ease since last week

My body is here but not my mind and soul.

I have been thinking a lot these days. 

I failed to get a room for me in the hostel, so I seriously have no idea where to stay. Two days left till classes to start but where am I going to live is still the question now.

Number two; my exam result is coming out tomorrow. I am crazily not okay. So extremely nervous. What if it's another fail ? How am I going through the semester ? Dear God, please make it pass for both papers. I want to make sure the phone call I'll make that day won't be wet with tears anymore :(

Number 3; Was thinking, can I be in the same class with my friends ?

I need two right now;

1st : My parents

2nd : Allah.

I am back in KL and I seriously need my mom right now. Child me, I am crying in the middle of the night missing my mom and dad who I bid farewell 12 hours ago after 5 weeks spending time together.

And I need the calmness that I could get by praying and reciting the Quran but oh God, my red aunt hit me just now. This is hard. Those oppas are not even relevant right now. Seriously, I don't have any exciting feelings to them, for the first time.

Need a nerves pill please.

The real pill from pharmacy.