tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-72516033739915560392024-03-19T12:03:38.133+08:00lilRObiNhOOdUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger444125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-81183481257501021962020-04-01T20:38:00.001+08:002020-04-01T20:38:59.578+08:002020 Comeback<div style="text-align: center;">
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It's me, remember???</div>
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Last post was in 2018 fuhhhhhhhhhhh. That was so, damn, long ago.</div>
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I am now on a break from working from home and thought of making an update</div>
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WHY you asked? Because of the covid-19 break. Yes, we have a global pandemic now!!! The virus travel worldwide starting from Wuhan! The highest case now is in America with thousands of deaths cumulatively. Malaysia as of this date has over 2000 cases with 43 death up till today. So our prime minister decided for us to stay at home for A MONTH! Hence why we are working from home now. Duhhhhh 2018 lilrobinhood would not expect this to happen. No one does either. Here is a quick update for this blog to keep.</div>
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1) I am almost 15kg heavier since the last post.....er......trying to work out this time but it is april already and I......err....hihi.......</div>
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2) I am still single. sigh. but I am happy, no worries lol!!</div>
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3) I am still working at the small firm.......lol. I thought of quitting after 3 months, but look at me now. Almost 3 years in the firm. Work has been good. Sometimes, bad. But I take everything professionally as a lesson to me. #GoodWorker</div>
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4) I am now a semi-senior! wee. Can't believe my boss has that much trust in me when I have trust issue with my own self. I could say I grew a lot. But I am STILL lacking in so many ways. hmm..</div>
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5) I have two best friends in the office. Intan and Anis. Both of them joined few months later than me. Cannot believe life in the office without both of them. We even talked on the phone out of office hour. That close we are now.</div>
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6) What else.......oh! I have two new babies now. Abdul Haq and Aisyah. Both were born in September 2019 with 10 days apart. Crazy right? I remember having a post for each birth but.....you guys would not read anyway so let's skip that part.</div>
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7) I sell brownies now. Even though, my only customer was my colleagues. haha</div>
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8) Oh this should be number 1 but I BOUGHT FLIGHT TICKETS TO SEOUL!!!!!!!!!! That was my travel wish list since I was 15 !!!!!! Finally dream almost comes true 10 year later. But the bad news is that, because of the pandemic, we might have to cancel our trip :((</div>
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9) I am still a die hard kpop fan especially SHINee of course. Onew, Key and Minho are in army right now and will be discharging soon ! Ikr. My babies are in army now!!!! I never thought I would see this day to happen but yeppppp...forever a shawol!!! Taemin you ask? I am still in love with him day by day. While waiting for the hyung to come home, he joined SM's new boy group/sub unit named Super M. It was formed to debut in hollywood. So Taemin has been learning english religiously. He is so cute when speaking english, I swear. Wait, this going to be a lengthy post. I am going to stop talking about Taemin here. haha.</div>
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I think that is all from me. A real quick update. I read this blog from time to time and I miss how much I poured my heart and soul into my writing. So when I read it back, it feels so alive. The memory is like still like fresh while reading. I wish I could write more. See you again next time. Thanks for reading, again. Xoxo. </div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-586038220646448062018-06-17T20:38:00.000+08:002018-06-17T20:38:13.927+08:00I had a monster in me.<div style="text-align: center;">
I was reading When Breath Becomes Air (highly recommended!) first chapter and suddenly I came across on writing this. The one you're about to read. Funny how after a long hiatus, I suddenly came back to this space to write this. I inspired on writing a documentary about his illness.</div>
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I've never mention this to anyone other than my family and few friends of mine. Because I felt like this is not a big deal (but somehow, it is. For me).</div>
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Around 13 years ago, I was sitting on my brother's lap while watching tv. I was 10 at that time. Until he noticed something 'wrong' with me. He held my stomach - there IS something wrong with it. I never thought of it until he did. He notified my parents. They were both worried about it.</div>
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They brought me to the clinic in the area the next day, I guess. The doctor has no idea of what it was. He shook his head. Every patient who went to his clinic, went home with a diagnosed and prescribed medicines. But, he gave me a letter to refer to a specialist at Hospital Selayang.</div>
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On appointed date, my mom and I went to the hospital. They told me to lie down on the bed. And the doctor in charged did the basic check up and hold my stomach. He shook his head as well and he called his colleague for another opinion but it was useless. My mom thought that maybe my body was shocked because I fell A LOT. Especially from the seesaw. Kids like to bully me on a seesaw. They jumped out while I was on it. The doctors were like, "maybe in 2-3 years, it will be gone?" (Bitch- it has been 13 years). They advised my mom to go back to the clinic and asked for a letter to the General Hospital in KL. So we did.</div>
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We went back to the clinic, told the doctor and he wrote the letter referring to the general hospital. There were a lot of going back and forth to the hospital when I was 11. With my mom and dad. Endless check up and whatnot but they told me that I was a perfect healthy young girl but my body said otherwise. They advised us to go for a MRI. It was bloody expensive, I heard but because of my mom has a pension card, we got to have it for free.</div>
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My dad took a leave, I had an MC for it and missed lab class (which I quite disappointed on missing it) and we all went for the MRI. I changed into a patient gown with no any other cloth on me. And so I lied down on the bed and it moved me into a tunnel-like hole. I could not remember how long I was in there but the MRI made a freaking loud noise like the F1 race was just next to your ears. The nurse told me I cannot move at all or it will ruined everything. But...my feet were numb and I moved my fingers A LIL BIT and they stopped everything. My mom backed me up that I can't not move. But I kept quiet that I did it on purpose lol. We have to wait after another patient who has fell asleep under anaesthesia to go for the MRI. It was my turn and I told myself to hold it in and finish it in one go. I fell asleep for a moment and voila - finished the check up.</div>
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We came back to the hospital and and the MRI test showed us nothing wrong with me. My brain looked fine. (They scanned the brain because from there you could diagnose stuff). We leave the hospital with zero result. My mom was not satisfied. MY BODY WAS NOT FINE! I HAD A MONSTER IN ME. I would call it as a monster since they could not diagnosed me. They could not diagnosed this mysterious stuff in me. My stomach was not normal. It looked like I had a hiccup but in my stomach. It just beats every seconds.</div>
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My mom found another alternative - an electronical treatment at Gasundheit (they were famous for their ECPI drink). Basically they treated us using something like electronics wires and stuff with a study of electronic waves etc and the pills were based on our DNA. I went for few treatment and had their pills. One day, my mom was waking me up for subuh and I somehow TRIED to hold this monster in. My mom thought I still sleeping - she hold my stomach and the pace was getting slower and she was so so so happy that it worked ! But tbh it was me, who did it. Anyway, it did getting slower until I was attacked with high fever and I had the prescribed pills from the clinic and the monster ? It came back. With faster beat. The Gaseundheit doctor told me something like the pills from the clinic overcame the pills from there - hence it happened. I gave up.</div>
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Later in that year, we went back to Kelantan for raya. I could not remember how but I found myself in a car with my mom, my aunt and my grandma to the famous shaman in the village. The que was usually long but it was empty that day. They did not take any guests, maybe? But my grandma plead for me. This one makcik told me to sit and she was murmuring i-dont-know-what-surah and she told me someone sent 'something' to me. And there's like 'benda ghaib' at our house in KL. (For God sake, how on earth people went to a shaman who make up stories ughhhhhhhh). Since then I was mad at my mom for bringing me there. I know all she wanted was to find a cure for me but not a shaman, mom?????????</div>
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I gave up. I gave up with myself. I gave up on having any treatment. I gave up with everything. Just like the doctors said, since it didn't affect my studies etc - it's okay. I scored well in exams. Thus, it was okay. It was just my body - that's not normal.</div>
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My mom ? She has not gave up yet. We moved to Kelantan in 2008 and stopped getting any updates from the GH since then. But my mom still forcing me to go for another treatment. I was so done with my mom. I cared nothing but she worried for my future. She even thought if this would affect me when I got pregnant or giving birth. MY MOM EVERYONE. After thousands of times persuading me, I agreed to go to the nearby clinic. The doctor there is a famous one. She couldn't diagnosed me but this could be nerve related. So she prescribed me some nerve pills and see any results but nope - nothing happened. I gave up.</div>
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Years went by, my mom STILL has not give up. Instead of a shaman, she brought me to an ustaz that was introduced by someone. Unlike the shaman, he told me that it could be my blood nerve that was not straight hence caused the hiccup. He advised for an acupuncture treatment but we never did it.</div>
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I was forced to go for another check up at KPJ but I glued my body at home and failed my mom.</div>
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A year ago, my mom dragged me to this spa - to have a massage on it (not the normal massage btw) SHE STILL HAS NOT GIVE UP ! I was getting closer to the age where marriage would happened anytime soon, the age where pregnancy would happened anytime soon after I got married. The future that she worried of many years ago was getting closer. (LOL). She was still trying to find any alternative. I went for once and I gave up. I just don't like it. But I like what the lady told me. "God is Almighty. We never knows what will happen. Who knows he make it even easier when you gives birth?"</div>
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13 years later, this monster still living in me. I wore big shirts on purpose to not have people see it. I don't really like people sleep on my lap since 'it moves'.</div>
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I once watched Brain on Fire and cried a lot because I felt so related to the movie. Her brain was on fire but the doctors told her that she's fine. All the tests said so. But unlike me, she hasn't give up. So did her parents. And they found the right cure.</div>
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Couple of weeks have passed since the tragic news. I am still in sorrow, still grieving, still couldn't forget the fact that he's gone. Tons of draft I planned to finish writing and published 'em before the year ends failed me.</div>
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Here the quick updates of my new year, my new life that I always missed timing to post about it. This supposed to be the most exciting post of the phase in my life.</div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>I GOT A JOB</b></span></div>
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It is a small company. I got a call for an interview for the last week of 2017 and 2 days later I got a call that I got accepted. (I shall save this till the next post....well I really promised a lot but sorry life eat me and my time....I'LL TRY !)</div>
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I have been working since the 1st January. So far, it isn't that great. But I thought it is too early to judge. Anyway, my parents send me and fetch me from the office everyday. No jam, no hastle, so I am quite happy about that part.</div>
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<br />I am now part of the audit team. Life is really amazing right ? I can't imagine I am in this department. It was never be in my life plan tho. For now, I am just trying to learn hard in this small company for my future. Wish me luck ! xx</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-47575728629610991632017-12-20T00:29:00.000+08:002017-12-20T00:29:30.817+08:00A tragic news. (warn: NOT mine)<div style="text-align: center;">
I have been thinking a lot whether or not to write this. This blog was made to keep all the memories that I had. But I think up till now, I have only write the happy memories. I mean other than the failures posts which to remind me the struggle that I had. After a lot of thoughts, I decided to write this. So that I will never forget him.</div>
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Yesterday, a tragic news attacked me in the evening at 6.30 p.m. It was none other than, my beloved Jonghyun. You all knows that I really really really love SHINee. Ever since their hello baby era UNTIL NOW. NON STOP!!!! I never take a break from them. I never stan any new groups. Only SHINee until forever.</div>
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That evening I finished my skipping routine and while I was preparing for iftar, I reached my phone and "please pray for jonghyun" was on my kakaotalk notification from the intl groupchat. I was like "WHAT HAPPENED?? DID HE GOT INTO ACCIDENT OR WHAT???"</div>
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I rushed to twitter and the first two tweets that I saw were both containing "dead". I was panicked. I read slowly "SHINee's Jonghyun was found dead. Potential suicide". Tears rushed out of my eyes down through the cheek. I ran around the house, I screamed, I cried, my fingers did not leave the phone. Mom kept asking what happened. I couldn't tell her. I keep refreshing the feed until I see someone said it was a rumors. but death news all over my timeline. FROM THE WHOLE WORLD media outlet. It was almost azan and mom told me to scoop the rice but I barely could walk. I lost the strength in my legs. I forced myself not to drop the plates and glasses. I kept thinking of him that I didn't realize that I has finished eating.</div>
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That night everyone was like "doctor still haven't declare death" "doctors came out saying they are fighting for him" "doctors are doing cpr on him" "the family begged doctor to save him" and some said they were having autopsy etc. I couldn't trust anyone. I was just waiting for SM to release the official statement because I could only trust them.</div>
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We just hyped up so hard during his concert LAST WEEKEND. We were so excited of the new songs that he released in the concert. He finished filming his music video and jacket shoot 3 days ago. In August, a scandal attacked Onew which made him silence for over 4 months (I cried a lot back then). 5 DAYS AGO, they announced that SHINee will be back as FIVE in February. We cried of joy. We were so excited for the new year! We miss them so bad!! And when his sudden death was hitting me, I was in shock, I was speechless. This was so sudden. I was in denial for the whole night. I could not even sleep that night. I woke up many times last night. The news were playing all over my mind.</div>
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That morning, I reached my phone and a news of him leaving his last letter to Nine (a singer and his friend). The tears that I ran out last night was full again that I cried a bucket when I was reading the translation of his letter. It was so painful but I kept on reading it for 3 times (different translators). I could not stop crying that I had headache that morning because of lack of sleep. I tried to change my position and get some sleep again. I did, finally but with the bad dreams......</div>
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Jonghyun-ah..... You were more like a family to me instead of an idol. SHINee is a family to me. A HUGE part of my heart I gave it to SHINee. I love all five members equally. I once said that even death will never separate us apart. Who would have thought death really comes between us. It is still shocking and I tried to accept it but I couldn't. My friends were saying "stay strong" to me but if only it really gave me strength. "Pain is just a pain" like you always said.</div>
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Jonghyun-ah, during my uni days, when I was feeling down, I faced a lot of hardship, I failed a lot, I got tired a lot, my family didn't comfort me the way that I expected them to, but whenever that happened, I chose to listen to your songs and it washed them away. Your songs came into my life and I forgot everything whenever I closed my eyes while listening to your songs.Yes, I could not fully understand the lyrics, but your voice, your music, your songs beat the language barrier. That is how powerful and healing your songs are. </div>
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You helped so many people, you helped people who had depression, you helped people who had panic attack, you helped everyone. Even till the last moment of your life, you registered yourself as an organ donator. You warmed everyone through your voice and your songs. You started DJ-ing on Blue Night. It was a midnight segment (from 12 a.m. till 2 a.m. KST) but I always find any opportunity to listen to it. Tho the connection was slow at my college. Every time I was studying, I chose to listen to your radio because your voice was so soothing. I listened to your radio every night during my study leave. Your voice reading the messages, your voice when you were sharing your own story, it was so perfect with the midnight wind was blowing through the window.</div>
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After 3 years of dj-ing, you told us you have to quit for sake of your health. I never thought you had a severe depression. Tho you mentioned it a lot. You mentioned you had depression but I didn't know that. I am so sorry. I regretted this a lot.</div>
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You seek for help, you silently reached people through your songs, you silently reached for help. I am so sorry I didn't notice that. I am so sorry I couldn't do anything. I am so sorry I couldn't help you when you helped us a lot. I think the fact that you decided to take your own life, you passing in a painful way, are really painful to me. That's why I couldn't accept your death. That's why I am still in a denial. Because you were suffering alone. You were in pain. You were crying. That hurts me even more. My heart is breaking when I thought of losing you. But it breaks even more because you were enduring the pain behind that smile.</div>
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You planned your death. You planned your final concert to see shawols for the last time. (His face when he were looking at the pearl aqua ocean is so painful to watch - we were like "awh he looked at us with tears in his eyes". Who would have thought deep inside he thought "this will be the last" :((( )You planned your final album as a last gift for shawols. You left your final letter before the concert. You planned everything and we didn't know !! You chose to take your own life at a rented officetel alone. How painful would it be for you to come to that decision.</div>
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Jonghyun-ah, in my religion, there is no the next life. The hereafter is a long lasting. But if God decided to have a next life, I hope you were born as a normal person that full of happiness! I hope you no longer suffer in this world.</div>
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Your friend said you were unable to sleep without sleeping pills. You always told us you cannot sleep until the sun rises, you always told us you sleep late. But yesterday, you slept so early. And no more sleeping pills after this. Sleep well baby. May you rest well up there. SHINee may lose a human but they gained an angel.</div>
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Thank you Kim Jonghyun for coming to my life. Thank you for the past 10 years. Thank you for pouring your love on us. Thank you for coming out a great music (which you are the only idol-composer that fit my genre and my style!!!!!) Thank you for everything that you have done in this world. You have worked hard. You've really gone through a lot. Thank you and I love you. Eventhough it will never be the same, you will always remain in my memories FOREVER!</div>
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So, I have already mentioned in my previous entry that I was working on a project and it was about <b><span style="background-color: white; color: #76a5af; font-size: large;">MY FIRST VIDEO EVERR !!!!!!!!!</span></b></div>
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I kept over 300 footages for almost 6 MONTHS and I finally worked on it and got it uploaded on 5th December at 5.25 p.m. KST <i>(y'all I just gotta make the date so special because it was the day Onew finally spoke up after 4 months of silence and 525 is OUR number a.k.a SHINee's anniversary)</i></div>
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I was inspired by this one vlogger named Joan and she mentioned about keeping your memories in a form of a video so that when you watch it again, it kinda re-live your memories.<br />
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Only then I thought- ahh I barely blogs anything about my campus life because I kinda lose my momentum in blogging. 4 years went by and it hit me hard that I was in my final semester. Then I decided to make a video and film things that I have been doing, things I have gone through there. Plus, I still have no plan on pursuing Master in the nearer times, so this is like a treasure box of my life as a student! My 2018 onwards would be all about work work work work and work. Also, I kinda losing my memories little by little, I forgot my old crush's name, I forgot my phone number, I forgot some numbers that I always remember, I forgot how I call my friends' name as etc. So this video would be one of the tools, other than my blog to keep my memories.<br />
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The video almost hit 100 views which is a shock to me because I had small number of followers on my sns, I only posted it on twitter, to my family and to my friend, Dali (which is, she's the one who spread it lol). I think some of the views I got because of Lenka (who has manyyyy friends on twitter) and Dali (who also has many fans) retweeted my tweet.<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-42828905832145851972017-12-07T00:27:00.002+08:002017-12-07T00:27:52.332+08:00LIFE UPDATE<div style="text-align: center;">
It is already December and I am still jobless (sigh)</div>
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I think I am pretty slow in applying for jobs etc. I keeps on telling myself "tomorrow lah" and yeah, I regretted it. I underestimated in getting a job. Because most of my friends had it easy. They finished final, sent their resumes and got a call right away. So I thought it would be the same to me. NOPE.</div>
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Maybe because the jobs here are limited. There is not even one job ads in kelantan in jobstreet. LIFE IS SO SAD. GOD LET ME STAY HERE WITH MY PARENTS !!! I have my parents, I have my own room, SO I AM NOT LEAVING THIS PLACE!</div>
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So my parents (and my brother and his wife) have been feeding me EVERYDAY, 3 TIMES A DAY OR MORE and I feels so bad T_T I watched allllllll dramas from every channels and yea...fattening myself.</div>
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My dad has been counting on days till my result day ever since I told him the result would be in October. "Today is 1st....today is 2nd....Today is 3rd..." until I had no choice but to tell him that it would be out on 16th October! He even counted it down last night. "It's 12 am already" "it's monday". The result will be out 12 a.m. UK time, dad.</div>
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5 minutes later my phone beeped. No. I'm not ready. I am really not. I closed my eyes, scrolling twitter as well (because Taemin's new album is going to be released on the same day!!) I let the message there without checking it. My dad would have scold me already because it is already there.</div>
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My head full with "what if it is 'fail'? how do I tell them? what am I going to do?" And all the thoughts stressed my stomach and I had to go to the bathroom. In the bathroom, I STILL had so many thoughts. I was thinking how bad I answered the questions, I was thinking how I lost so many vocabs so sudden that I couldn't answer in professional way and so many similar thoughts. I even thought "what if God says not yet to all my prayers?" "Why I didn't solat dhuha much during my study?" "What if I didn't solat hajat that much?" (I totally put my trust in my solat hajat that I afraid I will be dissapointed) - <i>I read once somewhere to do solat hajat 12 rakaat and insyaAllah you will get what you want, it worked for my SPM result...</i></div>
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I went out of the toilet with my wudhuk on and I prayed Dhuha first with my heart beat extremely fast. <i>"God, you are the Almighty, please help me on making my parents happy. Help me gives them a good news"</i> was my last prayer that day. I grabbed my phone right away and I said Bismillah about 10x. I clicked the message and closed my eyes.</div>
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My eyes slowly opened, I slowly read the sentences with the sound of my heart beating hard. "Pass" I CRIED SO SO HARD as if I failed and my head down to earth right away. "Thank you Allah. Thank you". My telekung was drenched with tears and I ran to my parents' bedroom right away.</div>
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I couldn't wait to tell my dad, but mom told me to wait for her and she asked me to be a little dramatic. I went down for my dad but he's outside. So we waited for a while and when dad came in, mom was like,"be strong okay wo...be strong" #MyMomShouldBeCasted I ran to hug my dad right away. "Congratulations or not?"..."52!" and we both hugged so tight that he LIFTED ME UP. I am overweight but he lifted me up like woaaaaaa. He teared a bit and he sujud syukur right away.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-49579866194737290442017-10-15T00:49:00.002+08:002017-10-15T00:49:43.794+08:00My 22nd birthday!<div style="text-align: center;">
As of 2 days ago, 12th October, I officially turned 22 !!! /throws confetti/ lol. I was determined to be a better person the next morning I wake up as 22 years old girl.</div>
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That morning when I opened my eyes with determination of becoming a better person, I looked at my phone and 'dang it. I'm late for subuh'. I quietly went to the toilet without my dad noticed me (he will scold me, guys!). Then I went back to sleep after. A better person, huh?</div>
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I woke up again at 10 a.m. and I smileddddddddddddd all over. It's my birthdayyyyyyy! I went for shower right away and played SHINee's 1of1 album ! Gotta play my favourite album by my favourite babies and the shower room was full of happiness that morning xD</div>
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I replied all birthday messages (Taqwans didn't wish me this year. <i>seulpeuda</i>! lol). Then my mom and I decided to go to my high school to claim my SPM certificate because I need to apply a job okay! (Turned out my sister already took it for me but then I either lost it or misplaced it. dang it) But before that, we went to pick up my nephew from his school. I told him we were going to my school but he kept saying no (he thought I was going back to school in KL lol). The rest of journey is me explaining to him that it was not <i>that</i> school. My high school is getting prettier and I miss them!</div>
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My mom told us to go and buy the cake while she wait in the car. While I was about to get out of the car, I kinda 'terpleot' a.k.a twisted my feet and I ended up fell outside the car and leaned on the rear door that my sil about to open. This is so funny tho.....</div>
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It did not end up there. While we were choosing the cake, with my mind stressed over the SPM cert, I looked down and noticed there was some dirt on my feet and SUDDENLY I lose my balance and fell down while laid down on the floor. I just laughed ! lol. Thank God no one was looking but the SR staff just looked at me with weird face -_- My sil held out her hand and lifted me up.</div>
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After choosing the cake, I kept telling my nephew to hold my hand because I afraid I would split my legs again. We went home, had lunch and rest. After zohor prayer, I took my laptop, phone and charger and went down the stairs.</div>
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*thump* I fell from the stairs. again. That was my third time that day. I think I fell hard that my dad who was reciting the Quran in the living room paused for a while, my sil who was praying had heart beats so fast and my mom stopped whatever work she was doing. I sat on the stairs about few minutes, my heart was screaming in pain and my eyes trying to held out the tears. I sprained my right feet. My left leg turned blue because I was dragged down the stairs. I almost cried when they asked me.</div>
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I think I've never write about my nephews and niece other than their birth. And I am planning on writing on one. I hope I gotta write about them soon because I love looking at their photos from my instagram feed, how they changed by the time.</div>
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I feel sad leaving because I had so much fun with my friends (which we became a roomie/next door this semester). We are so loud till the nerdy next door knocked our door telling us to keep quiet. No one realised it was almost 12. That's how much fun we had.</div>
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That night was so breezy and cold. The wind blew through the branches, passing through the window and brushed my cheek as if it was going to rain that night. *Update: it rained, at 3 a.m.</div>
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It was a peaceful friday night. My roommates, some are getting ready to sleep and some are still studying from the table while I was still writing down answers for that one question from a set of past year questions.</div>
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Heize's You, Rain and Cloud came on shuffle and I put down my pen as the song was totally fitting in with the weather. I put down my head on the table and listened to the song while thinking of the final episodes of my favourite drama of the year, 7 Days Queen.</div>
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As usual, I had a month break from kdramas to focus on my final. If you didn't know yet, I usually put my 98% feels in the drama I was watching. If it had a happy scene, I would smile till the next day, if it had a sad scene, I would cry till the next day (usually longer). If it had a stressful scene, I would have a meal more than than usual. And this is the reason why I have to take a break.</div>
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Ok, back to the topic. It was my weekend night and an idea came into my mind while I was working on the case study. "Maybe I should try cheating this time - it's only 2 hours for 2 episodes. Meanwhile watching at midnight will do no harm. or else I would have just sleep", the devil inside me speaking.</div>
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And that's when the song came on shuffle. I was so determined to follow what my heart was saying. Suddenly, my memories playback what happened few weeks before. I bid farewell to my parents. I hugged them and said "sorry" to their ears. While walking up on the escalator, I cried again. While waiting for boarding, I texted them saying "sorry for dissapointing" again while crying. While on board, I cried more.<br />
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Tears started to flow down through my chubby cheeks. Ahh..I promised myself not to say sorry to them anymore for failing. I promised myself to not cry in front of them anymore. I promised myself to study harder.<br />
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*update: this post supposed to be published more than 2 weeks ago but I got caught up with studying and mingle-ing with friends so.......yeppp*</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-77986999757897501632017-07-19T23:41:00.002+08:002017-07-19T23:41:54.595+08:00And so it happened.....<div style="text-align: center;">
Ssup guys, i am currently blogging in my room in my uni hostel</div>
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yepp... i am back in uitm guys. and yes, I failed my FINAL paper and I could not become an affiliate (yet). How was I, you wonder? So here I am writing this post for the future me could be reminded how hard it is to become an affiliate.</div>
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I never tell my parents the exam date. I just briefly told them it would be on second week of July till my friend came to our house and told him it would be out on monday of 17th at 7 in the morning. (Thanks fam! lolll) Since then my parents sort of pressuring me even more about result date. ummm okay.....I usually left home 2-3 days before result day because I have to register for new semester the next day but this time, I bought a flight ticket to KL on the day the result day so that I could planned what to do after the result was released in the morning.</div>
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It was even more pressuring because it was my final semester and my final two papers. I am either could pursue on looking for a job or I have to resit for exam. I could only tawakal to Allah. I could not miss out praying for my result everyday.</div>
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That morning, I woke up by myself for subuh. And I cleaned up my room because I was leaving on that day and scrolled twitter for a while till the clock ticked at 7 o'clock. 4 minutes later, my phone beeped a message came in. </div>
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"P6 - 50% Pass"</div>
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My heart dropped on the floor. First thing I did was sujud syukur right away for that one pass. At the end of the day, it is better to pass one rather than none. The next thing was..I stood in front of the door of my room and hold the handle for 10 minutes. I whispered to myself, "how do I go out..how do I go out...how do I go out" for that long.</div>
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I could not go out of my room and face my parents. But, I finally went out after 10 minutes and the door of my parents' room was already open as if they were waiting for me. I just froze and my brain just could not process on walking to the room.</div>
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I closed my eyes and walked into the room and back-hugged my mom who was lying on the bed and she thought it was dad that hugged her (come on mom...) and i was silent for 5 minutes. Without realizing tears started to flow down on my cheeks. Mom thought I was going to surprise them. No mom, no. So, I told them and I already know they were dissapointed.</div>
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I whatsapp-ed the group and dad even wrote NEXT TO ME how he was feeling so sad and all. Mom said she wanted to held a kenduri kesyukuran if I passed. Dad said he wanted to free out the bird he saved the other day if I passed. And I let both down.</div>
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It was so frustrated because I failed at 49%. I lacked of 1% to become an affiliate, to achieve all the wishes my parents had, to finish everything.<br />
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The other day, when I was on my way to the hostel to check in my room, the moment we step into uitm, the moment I have to climb up the hills and stairs to my faculty, the moment I have to register for my class, the moment I went to DC to buy dinner, the moment I went to supermarket to buy necessary stuff and more, I hate myself more and more. I hate THE 1% that made me re-do all this stuff that I bid farewell a month ago.<br />
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The moment I walked out from my hostel last month, I already said to myself I am not coming here again. I waved goodbye to my faculty, to the places I often went to, to every places in this uni. And when I think about this, again, I keep hating myself even more. I am usually okay for failing my papers but NOT WHEN I AM LACK OF 1 MARK TO PASS MY FINAL PAPER.<br />
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I will forever hate this mark. And I will forever hate myself for not trying harder. I will forever hate the lack of one mark that make me restart everything, to leave home when I am not prepared to leave. Till tonight, I am still resent myself. I feel like eating a painkiller because it hurts so bad. Or.... I feel like stabbing myself more because I am already in pain. I felt demotivated. I lose the will to study again.<br />
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However, when I look back at the text message, little did I forget, I passed one. the 50% marks that made me passed the paper I thought I would failed, that I afraid to resit the paper. I forgot I prayed to pass even if with 50% and Allah granted it. I resent myself for not being grateful. Oh Lord, is this a test you give to me?<br />
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That morning, I texted my P6 lecturer, Dr. Lai. And she replied with 3 different color hearts along with "I am so happy for you!!" and a congratulation. My parents were silent because they were sad. It saddened me more. But the text brightened up my sorrow morning. I could not stop thanking her. And this noon, she sent a photo of names that would received a present. She promised us prior to exam to give souvenirs from China for top scorers and most improves ! (She went to China during our study leaves loll) and MY NAME WAS IN THE PHOTO! I could not stop smiling thinking of the present that I was about to receive!<br />
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Tho I am still resenting myself, life has to move on and I have to get back on track and I HAVE TO PASS THE LAST PAPER!! Pray for me everyone. For me to be able on making my parents grins from ears to ears.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-28506705401270261682017-07-17T01:24:00.004+08:002017-07-17T01:24:34.669+08:00My final exam result will be released in few hours and i am so hella nervous right now. :(Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-91878227466714945542017-05-31T02:27:00.001+08:002017-05-31T02:27:24.040+08:00The holy month is back<div style="text-align: center;">
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OMG, time really flies right ? Feels like it has just been a while since I felt all sad and regretful for not performing much during my last ramadhan. Fret not, the time has come again and I promise to myself not to leave the month with the same feeling again. InsyaAllah.</div>
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I am not gonna write the list again because duh, (<i>it's actually 2.20 a.m. and I am ditching from studying right now, so I have to be quick</i>).</div>
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The list is just gonna be the same with previous year ramadhan list, so I hope I could fulfill most of it. Remember, God seek for improvements right? Not necessarily a perfection.^^ However, I am in the midst of preparing for final which is LESS THAN A WEEK!!! Gosh, I am shivering as I typing this. So, I haven't start any of it yet, but I am trying to be istiqamah in reciting the Quran after the main 5 prayers.</div>
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Final is in less than 3 weeks guys !!!!</div>
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It's the final two papers. And hopefully could finish them in one go (amin, insyaAllah).</div>
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So, last thursday, I went home for the weekend and my SIL asked me to accompany her to one photoshoot for her scarf business in Shah Alam. As I have no plan at all on that day, I just said yes! And I was so excited because I have always wanted to see how a photoshoot looks like! (Deep inside I have been waiting for the business partner to ask me to come along and MY SIL FINALLY DID!)</div>
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But it was a pretty cool experience to be in a studio, to see how they worked, to see the pretty model (I never felt so insecure before)</div>
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If you guys are interested in the scarf, you can visit their <a href="https://www.instagram.com/saifash/" target="_blank">instagram </a>or <a href="https://www.facebook.com/bysaifash" target="_blank">facebook</a> ! Their best-selling and also their main product is the basic satin shawl and they also have an instant satin shawl, also a square satin. </div>
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After the shoot ended around 3 p.m, we went to Putrajaya right away to send the stuff for my brother's hantaran (yes, he is getting married!!). So we stayed at Alamanda Putrajaya while waiting for the person that we were going to meet. Had dinner there and walked around to let the jammed road cool down because we were heading to Desa Pandan to pick up the cream puff that my sil ordered from.</div>
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The funny story was, my sil didn't have her powerbank with her, neither did I. Her iphone has died and she only has her huawei which was left with 10% battery. WE NEED to use the waze. Went out from Putrajaya safely eventhough waze brought us to the wrong road, and we started again using the waze to Desa Pandan and WE COULDN'T FIND THE PLACE! My sil's huawei died and I still have phone at 20% battery to use the maps to the location. And we STILL could not find it. After we whatsapped the person, only then we found the place. At that time my battery left with 5% and my brother called. We quickly asked him how to get out from that place, my phone died right after we hung up. Luckily, we were on the right way and safely arrived at home around 10.30 p.m. Alhamdulillah.</div>
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Hello guys ! This is my first haul blog EVER!!</div>
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I never do any haul. Mostly I just did it in front of my sister lol.</div>
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But since I bought A LOT in this month (and March is not even ended yet), I shall write this for sake of ME in the future. Who knows IF I become broke af, in the future, the future me should see how I spent my money today instead of saving it up for my korea trip.</div>
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Aiyana Drawstring Trumpet Sleeve Blouse in Light Beige from <a href="http://poplook.com/en/home/13748-aiyana-drawstring-trumpet-sleeve-blouse-light-beige.html" target="_blank">POPLOOK</a></div>
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Bought it when they had 20% off sales. I JUST CANNOT RESIST IT !! Bought it for my brother's wedding but sorta off regret it. I think I could find something better than this to wear on his wedding.</div>
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FOUR chiffon shawls at RM8 each, 2 for RM15 (so why not)</div>
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and FINALLY a "shirt" for my harddisk!! I always being in cautious while bringing the harddisk everywhere. A naked harddisk is so dangerous okayyyyyy!</div>
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All were bought at Karnival Keusahawanan in my campus!</div>
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SP is seriously a heaven for me because literally EVERY KBEAUTY brands have their flagship store there. It is literally a make-up haven on that Ground Floor. Not only kbeauty brands, but also all american brands such as bobbi brown, benefit co, etc all has their flagship store side by side.</div>
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So, I went into Innisfree for the first time yesterday ! I usually feels shy to go in there because I have nothing to buy there. Here is what I grabbed yesterday!</div>
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I heard Innisfree masks are great ! AND IT IS CHEAP !! JUST RM4 EACH!!</div>
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<i>p.s: the cashier was like saying they don't have small bag, but i STILL want the bag! I RARELY shop here, so why not! bhahahaha</i></div>
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Just purchase anything, and you could sign up for their membership ! WHY NOT GUYS! I LOVE to collect membership cards plus, IT IS FREE! Not only you got the membership card, they also give you a sample of their (amazing) products for free. Well, in S.Korea, you can easily get samples tho. lol. Also you can receive 100 points if you answer 5 easy questions upon registering.</div>
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I don't know how good it is, but Peripera is famous for its lip tint! And it is the sister brand of CLIO. So CLIO's Kill Cover bb cushion is famous but I cannot afford it, so I went for peripera's. CLIO IS ALSO AVAILABLE AT THE WATSONS!</div>
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IF you wonder why did I buy so many basic makeup, the truth is, I just want to look good on my brother's wedding. Well, I know how to wear all these basic kits but not eyeshadows, palletes, contours, highlights etc. So, I'm just gonna put that weird things aside. MAYBE in the future.</div>
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Because SPM leavers are now in the midst of choosing the important path of their education life, I'm here trying to help you, young kids because I was also used to be in your situation. I've actually been wanting to write about this but I thought of waiting till my final papers so that I've enough knowledge to write about it!</div>
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What is ACCA? You probably have wiki-ed the word before you come accross to this post so I will skip that details. The important point is, <span style="background-color: #ea9999;">WHY ACCA ?</span></div>
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As in the name of ACCA, it is a course for you to be a Certified Accountant. Yes, if you want to be an accountant, this could be an option for you other than the local path of diploma in accountancy and bachelor in accountancy.</div>
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Also, as in the name, it's a GLOBAL body. With just one word, it could bring you around the globe. You could study from your home, or you could fly to London, or whenever you want. You could work in your homeland or you could work abroad with JUST one certificate.<br />
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Some people choose the ACCA path right after SPM because it is like a short path to become a professional accountant. Well, to be very honest, it really depends on how your perform during the whole journey. Some people took 3 years, some people took 5-6 years. It all depends on how you pass or fail in the exams.<br />
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<span style="background-color: #f9cb9c;">So, HOW was the study?</span><br />
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Every acca students will answer the same, it is VERY tough. Well, I don't know about other courses, but acca studies are NO JOKE guys !! Lemme tell ya from my experience. I came from CAT and it was so hard already. Especially for someone who has no basic knowledge of accounting (I was a science stream student okay!), it is very tough at first. But thank God for amazing lecturers and friends, I managed to pass for all 9 papers in CAT level.<br />
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After a year in CAT, taking computer-based exam (except for two papers - i guess all are computer-based by now), I had a VERY hard time in fundamental level a.k.a F papers. It was like you entered a very new planet. Everything seems serious, harder and I got mental breakfown that semester. You thought CAT was hard. NO GUYS. F papers are way harder. My first two papers were F4 (Company Law(?)) and F6 (Tax). I failed the f6 paper. The exam really bombed me, guys. My F6 lecturer keeps on saying it's okay to fail in ACCA. because it is normal and the world understand. YES GUYS, to that level. The level that people won't look down on you failing ACCA because it is that hard that people will see you as a strong human to proceed the journey. Lemme remind you, the 1.5-2 years of you studying the F papers are equal to what the degree students are studying for 2-3 years. One F papers are MORE DETAILED to what degree students had. And tougher.<br />
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Alhamdulillah I passed all the F papers after going through storms and rainbows, I finally in Professional level a.k.a P papers. Professional level is ABOVE degree level. You thought F papers are damn hard enough. No guys. NO! P papers are way way way way the toughest thing ever on earth. They said, you need a critical thinking and could think out of the box in this level. The truth is.... i don't have neither. My knowledge is small and I cannot even think out of the box. It was harder because of this but, if you are like me, do not worry guys. You also can survive (like me hahaha)<br />
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I took my P paper, P1 together with the F paper, F8. It was, how to put into words.......insane. There is a very huge gap between F paper and P paper. I fell into depression in my P1 class. I know nothing, like TOTALLY NOTHING, suddenly my lecturer told us to do 1 past year question. I was speechless. It was so different, the way to answer is also different. (I only know how to answer few weeks before exam lolll). I didn't even know my marks for test 1 and 2. I got 13% during trial exam. LUCKILY I passed in final exam.<br />
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This is how acca works guys. It is not 100% totally on you reading the whole text book. You gotta do your very best in studying, work your ass off so hard in exam and most importantly, pray the hardest to the Lord. ONLY HE can help you in every ways.<br />
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<li style="text-align: justify;">It is VERY hard. (People said it is the hardest exam in the world, idk...)</li>
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<li style="text-align: justify;">It is VERRRRYYYYY expensive. These days, one paper cost you RM600-700 each. PREPARE TO BE BROKE.</li>
<li style="text-align: justify;">It will not be marked by your beloved lecturers. (Bribing won't work guys. lol). Your papers will be travelling around the globe and marked by selected examiners.</li>
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The ONLY one public university that offered CAT-ACCA (and CIMA) is our proud UiTM Shah Alam. Our university even received platinum status for ACCA. The students are all good (of course), the seniors are great, the location is good also and the facilities here are all great. The lecturers are all so amazing eventho most veteran lecturers are retiring :( The semester fees are cheaper compared to private university. You could save up on college fees for the expensive exam fees! loll<br />
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NO WORRY MATE !! There are various sponsorships that CAN SUPPORT your journey in ACCA. For example, Yayasan Peneraju, AmCorp, Bank Rakyat and Maybank. MARA used to sponsor/giving loans for acca course but... this course is too expensive and the government has no money mehh so i was in the second last batch that they support.<br />
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For Yayasan Peneraju, they completely support you on allll kind of fees, buying books and even monthly allowance. You don't even have to worry on how to pay your exam fees. (unless... you failed the paper(s))<br />
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For AmCorp, you will receive half-scholarship and half-loan which you gotta payback certain amount. About another allowances, I am not really sure.<br />
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For Bank Rakyat and Maybank, I'm not really sure what allowances they will be giving. What I know from my friends who are sponsored by Maybank, they received A LOT.<br />
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You can google more about the sponsorships above.<br />
Any question(s) relating to the course/study/anything, drop comment below or just directly dm me on twitter (link on your right!:D)<br />
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<i>Great motivational quotes from ACCAMY Official Page !</i><br />
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It's already february and goshhhhh how could I missed out the new year post!!! Not gonna give you excuses but I tell you, I am so busy from the first day of the new year. I could barely have free time to update this blog ! Decided to spend my friday evening, sacrificing my revision to update everything at once ! </div>
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I rarely write one because it's either I couldn't make it happen or same thing happened this year. But for 2017, I have decided to write one so that, throughout this year, this blog is going to witness whether or not I achieve the resolution.</div>
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As in my timeline plan, this semester should be my final semester (insyaAllah amin!), my very first big target in 2017 is to finish on time and pass the last 3 papers in this semester!! This is hella nerve-wrecking. Everyone has their own plan on when to graduate but in the end, the Mighty Allah s.w.t decides the best for you. Hopefully the Lord see this is the best for me (and my fellow friends). So I gotta put my extra effort this time. Ain't gonna study a month before exam. Nope. Very wrong!</div>
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In upcoming April, my family and I are going to welcome new family member insyaAllah. By the time comes around, I NEED to lose weight and be fit. I have tremendously gaining weight for the past 2 years. It was so bad, I could feel all the caffeins and sweets are killing me inside. TIME TO START FOR DETOX ! Well I tried making one at home few weaks ago, it tastes SO horrible ! yecks. Gotta try the one at the mall. MAYBE they are better who knows lollll. I even have started subscribing fitness channel on youtube such as popsugar and xhit. They make me sweats but it is kinda hard to do it here at my hostel. I only do it at home. But in the meantime, I have started jump ropes but dieting.....IS SO HARD! </div>
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That was two main resolutions I had for now. The small resolutions would be, to engage in events committee. BUT I GOTTA CROSS THIS OUT. I DIDN'T EVEN FILL OUT THE FORM! My friends are all used to be committee so, it was hard to join it for the first time without at least one friend. I am such introvert, so it is hard to adapt the situation with new people etc. </div>
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Last one, /cough/ to blog even more this year /cough/ I bet you all are puking now because I am ! This is literally every year resolution but look at me writing new year post in february. hahahahaha. I will try okAY! </div>
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That's all I had, for now! </div>
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Wishing you guys a very blastful new year and take care of your health ! Please join detox with me. You guys need to taste the weird drinks with me ! And thanks for reading this blog!</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-13464436466719456732016-12-15T18:19:00.001+08:002016-12-15T18:19:13.537+08:00A tiny thing.<div style="text-align: center;">
Back from furniture store just now. They are having a warehouse sale for these few days. It is a bonus for me because I have no bed yet in me new room (yes, will blog about the new house soon). </div>
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So, we went to the store in the midst of busy road, we arrived there thankfully. After a round of the store, nothing catch our eyes. But I am not leaving there yet. It's now or never. Tadah 3 sets of white bedroom sets are calling me. I tried to choose the cheap one but dad said it's okay. Anyway, mom chose the most expensive one so I have to reject her right away. Me and dad came to conclusion to choose that babe over there. </div>
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The total is RM3k++ I gulped a bit. Then they said there will be delivering cost because "it's a promotion day" -___- When dad was about to pay using a credit card, they said there will be a 2% charge because "it's a promotion day" =___= So dad insisted right away and took our his debit card.</div>
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Back in the car, we were like dude, that warehouse sale is not so sale. They add here and there. Until I realized, wow God, forgive us for not seeing the rezeki you gives to us that moment. No 2% charge, delivery will be tomorrow, we shall be grateful. </div>
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Allah, is the giver, of the best. He would give his rezeki anywhere, whenever, even a tiny thing, for us. Just one thing, do not forget to say, "Alhamdulillah" :)</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-49944413485159415362016-09-24T03:02:00.001+08:002016-09-24T20:53:55.774+08:00I had a magical day in my life for #MYRoyKim<div style="text-align: center;">
Before the year end, I better start writing this as soon as I could. Blogging is not that easy. I have to transfer the hundreds of photos from both my phone and my ipod and then have to look one by one to choose a nice photo and edit them by cropping, brightening, putting on label - so many works to do!</div>
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I said SHINee in Sepang will be the last concert, I LIED !</div>
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It was early August when WMM announced ROY KIM WILL BE COMING TO MALAYSIA !!! My heart was trembled. I like his songs, and his voice so so so bad. His good looking face is a bonus ! But to hear his songs for live has been in my bucket list for so long just like how I wanted to meet SHINee so bad. It was amazing because he only held his tour in Korea and Taiwan. ROY KIM ? IN MALAYSIA ? makes me want to go even more</div>
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WMM pass the baton to various hallyu pages to conduct contests to win FREE showcase ticket and meet & greet passes. Hell no. I ALWAYS have no luck in this such things. Nevertheless, it won't stop me from entering the contest. I did what was required and sharpened my non-existance drawing skill. My roommates sure wished I wasn't exist that weekend. I kept on disturbing them and never stop asking them to judge my drawings. hahahahhaa<br />
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My first ever drawing. well, my roomies couldn't stop laughing. Either I. HOW TO MAKE IT LOOK THE SAME ??!!!!! It was hella hard. (didn't submit this tho). So I spent the rest of the weekend for drawing tho I had so many assignments.<br />
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A week before the showcase they announced the winner. NONE of the 5 pages that I joined had my name on the list for both showcase ticket and meet & greet passes. I was so sad but it was an open event ! So yeah I could still watch him from the side. And another events were fansign session and photocard giving session. I STILL have the chance to see him even closer !!<br />
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2 days before d-day, while I was laying down while listening to music, I received a call from an unknown number.<br />
"hello"<br />
"yes hello"<br />
"is this (strange name)?"<br />
"umm. sorry no"<br />
"eh? this is not (stranger phone numbers)?"<br />
"no. this is (my number)"<br />
"oh. nurulhuda ??"<br />
"y-yes.... who is this ???"<br />
"we are calling from epop malaysia. you joined the showcase contest right? You have won a pair of the showcase tickets"<br />
"OMG OMG /screams/ ARE YOU SERIOUS ?????!!!!!!!!"<br />
"yes I am. /details talk blablabla/ so you are coming this friday right ?"<br />
"YES OF COURSE I AM OMG OMG THANK YOUUUU"<br />
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Two nights before, I prepared a placard for Roy Kim. (lesson learnt from the shinee concert lolll).<br />
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A night before I couldn't get sleep at all. I was so nervous and so scared. I will be traveling alone and I thought of all sorts of possibility. I was afraid to go. I closed my eyes but all sort of imagination came to my mind. I thought of cancelling myself from going there. I couldn't sleep AT ALL !! NOT EVEN 5 MINUTES !! But I won the tickets, would be a waste if I didn't go ><<br />
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I went out from the house at 8 a.m with my sil until the LRT Gombak. The train was so full with people going to work and here I was, holding a monopod. LOL. Arrived at KL Sentral and went for breakfast first to kill time.<br />
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The girl that approached me on twitter whatsapp-ed me saying she has arrived at the mall. the heck so early. So I rushed to take the train to Kelana Jaya. MY FIRST TIME OMG I AM SO NERVOUS. It took around 25 minutes from KL Sentral.<br />
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It was almost 10.15 by the time I arrived and I couldn't see the bus to the mall. The next bus will be on 11 and I afraid I won't get in line for the album. (First 100 that bought the album will get to join the fansign event). In the end, I took the taxi to the mall. Almost got lost in the mall. And finally saw the stage. OH GOD SO CLOSE OMG I AM SO EXCITED !!!!!!!<br />
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And its finally 11 am and they started to open the counters. Then I just found out the album is RM120. I. am. dead. SO EXPENSIVE SIAAAA. I thought it would be less than RM100. But i've come too early and i've been queing for so long, it would be a waste if i walked away. Nik said she won't buy if it was her. But,,,,<br />
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<b>I. BOUGHT. IT. GUYS. </b><br />
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<i>that was money for my trip tho T_T</i><br />
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The fansign will be at 5.30 pm. WHAT SHOULD I DO IN THIS 6 HOURS ??!!! So I went to the prayer room and tried to get sleep. I was so excited that I couldn't get a sleep. I was so so so bored. The girl that approached me? We got seperated. She went with others pft. So I was alone for the whole time.<br />
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It's around 3 pm I went to the venue and many people came already. So I was just sitting around the corner doing nothing. I was so hungry made me went to buy cinnamon sugar pretzel. Swear i was so messy thanks to the sugars. Around 4 pm, ROY KIM HAS ARRIVED !!!! He had a soundcheck. oh my god. If you followed my instagram, I uploaded a sneakpeak. My body became so extremely cold. I was so nervous and SEE HIM SO UPCLOSE OH GOD !!!! HE IS SO GOOD LOOKING I SWEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />
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Then he went back to the backstage. People have started queing for meet & greet session at 5 pm. I was still standing around. Some went in line for fansign session. SUDDENLY, someone came to me and whispering "do you want m&g pass not?" LIKE SERIOUSLLYYYY????<br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">WHY. LUCK. ON. MY. SIDE. TODAY ?????!!!!!!!!!</span></b><br />
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Put on lipstick while queing and my blouse has cinnamon sugar stain (damn it) but I was glad it covered well in the picture. hahaha. When it was my group turn, I WAS SHAKING THE WHOLE TIME OMG. But I can't believe I went and ONLY said "hyeeeee" and after the photo session, I left JUST. LIKE. THAT.. I just turned around for once and they rushed me out. Couldnt stop blaming myself how stupid I was. BUT I didn't stop looking at him !! He is so fine oh my god. I am just... couldn't explain it. He is gold, I tell ya. Makes me move on from my crushes. And he couldn't stop saying "thank you thank you" ok boy i love you too.<br />
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Moving on to the fansign session. I entered the line AND WE ARE EVEN CLOSER TO THE STAGE OH GOD !!!! I was standing while deciding what to say. I had 2 plans. If the time on stage was long, I will use plan A, if it's short, I will use plan B. And I look at others YES IT WAS LONG OMG PLAN A GO GO GO !!! It was my turn, omg I was so shaking we were so damn close !!!!!! I can't believe I could face to face with him !!! Even when I was stand by, I couldn't stop staring at him.<br />
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"hello ! My name is woo. I like you so so much---"<br />
"what's your name" /FUCK I DIED/<br />
"it's Woo. W-O-O. Woo. I like you so so much (why did i repeat tbh?"<br />
"btw, how do you say 'I love you' in korean?"<br />
"saranghae"<br />
"NADO SARANGHAEYO" (I love you too)<br />
"ahahaha!"<br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">HE . LAUGHED. GUYS.</span></b><br />
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HE REALLY LAUGHED WHILE FACE ON THE TABLE GUYS.<br />
I STILL REMEMBER IT<br />
IT WAS SO UNEXPECTED.<br />
I DIDN'T EXPECT THAT RESPONSE<br />
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/paused/ damn it. it was longer than I thought. what should I say next.<br />
"oh did you catch pokemon here?" (TF DID I ASK??)<br />
"sorryy ? /while put his ear closer to me/<br />
"did you catch pokemon here?"<br />
"oh I did"<br />
"oh yea? how many?" (TF HOW MANY??!!)<br />
"umm not that many /while pouting/" SHIT I JUST SAW HE DID THAT FACE W MY OWN EYES<br />
"ok thank you"<br />
"thank you i love youuuuuuu"<br />
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I smiled alllllllllllllllllllllllll the way down to the stage. damn guys. i can't believe this happened. I never dream of this. It was so so so surreal. I can't believe I asked about pokemon which i dont give a f before lmao. But that "saranghae" is more than enough.<br />
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The good thing is, I PUT MY PHONE ON RECORD IN MY POCKET GUYS !!!! I thought i couldn't hear it, BUT IT WAS SO CLEAR EVEN HIS LAUGH !!!!<br />
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and when we went inside the seating area, i could finally take a look at my album and read what he wrote.<br />
<b><span style="color: #cc0000;">"SMART MOVE" AND SEVEN HEARTS </span></b><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>OH. MY. GOD !!!!!!!!</b></span><br />
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The bad thing is, I keep hearing his laugh in my mind and the "smart move". When I was doing nothing, eating, showering, putting on makeup, reading etc, it came and i smiled alone. I BECAME CRAZY NOW GUYS. I AM REALLY !!<br />
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Ok lets continue with the showcase at 7.30 pm !<br />
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We went inside around 6.30 pm. Oh GOD, i felt regretful at first because our seat started from 5th row. The first four were for medias and vips. But then, when i went inside, I was so so so grateful. Btw, I got to sit at 6th row. My legs are killing me. I cannot stand any longer. Plus, if I didn't get to sit inside, I won't be able to join the m&g and fansign. or else I would be standing behind, raised my hands so high to record, got pushed by ppl. The sitting is so amazing. I could see him so close and so clear without hurting myself. A bonus for short people like me.<br />
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The show start off with a remake song, Cloudy Day. I only heard once so I didn't really know the lyrics. It is a chinese song. He sang it while sitting, my eyes totally on him for the whole time.<br />
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Then he performed Love Love Love. The song that made my heart fluttered when I first know him. I've prepared with the chant. At one part he stopped and fans will screams "ROY KIM" and he accidentally bursted! omg idk why. it was so cute lmaooo.<br />
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Then move on to Pinocchio Ost. He performed the song while moving to the left side then to the right then to the middle. I moved in tears. I love that song a lot tho I was expecting for Another Oh Haeyong OST since that was his latest song.<br />
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During talk session he talked about his stay in malaysia, about his fave food during his stay which is sambal kangkung (omg so cute) and a lot. It was 8 minutes long. And one part he took off his coat, i screamed like crazy. I uploaded it on my twitter <a href="https://twitter.com/taemhud/status/769201348139098113">here.</a><br />
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Next, he performed Home. I cannot hold myself seriously. I always listened this song whenever I am on flight back to home and whenever I had homesick. This is THAT kind of song. And he performed in his new ways which is deeply touched my heart and left a pretty scar there. OH GOD I CANT-----Then he said stuff and "I'm glad my last tour for this season is Malaysia" and talked about his summer break will end soon and he has to go back to US for his studies.<br />
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And his last song was a cover of Damien Rice's The Blower's Daughter (I googled it just now. Don't even know who he is). Song ended and he said "thank you".<br />
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I was like "no man. where's bom bom bom ?!!!!!! nooo encore please. oh nooo that is an important song that need to be performed!!!". The MC came back on stage and "are you enough with it ???? i think if we clap and shout... i think he will come out" and he lead us to shout "WE WANT ROY WE WANT ROY" i hurt my throat for screaming it. The MC was like "maybe he will come again for a concert? gives ur best shot to the first two rows of vips!" lmaooo<br />
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HE CAME OUT /SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS/<br />
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"This gonna be my really REALLY last song. I want you to leave with some .... I want to make you guys miss me" (oh shut up i miss you so bad right now kim sangwoo) and he sang bom bom bom. I watched the fancam of the song from his other shows. There will be one part where fans scream his name and he stopped and said something like "you know that. 3, 4 roy kim. you get it" something like that. NEVER THOUGHT HE DID IT IN MALAYSIA !!! I totally didn't expect it. I AM TOTALLY HAPPYYYYY! We screamed "Roy Kim!". He stopped and "did you hear that? did you hear when it came in. /sing/ 2,3,4 [ROY KIM] okay? lets do this again!" and he sang from the start and when it came that part he did "3,4". I am glad the chant for bom bom bom turned out well.<br />
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8.30 pm and the show has ended !!<br />
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I went to home straight away eventhough there's photocard giving session yet, i didn't even join. HAVE TO RUSH TO HOME BECAUSE MY PARENTS WERE HERE IN KL !!!!!! I didn't even tell them I went to watch the showcase. hahaha<br />
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I recorded the whole show using my ipod and phone (audio) so I barely have a proper photo of him. Will upload the videos one day !<br />
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It was such a very memorable day. Thanks Warner Music Malaysia for bringing Roy Kim to Malaysia. I NEVER EXPECTED FOR HIM TO BE HERE. And thanks Epop Malaysia for the showcase tickets !!<br />
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Some photos from the fansign.<br />
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And here the photo for meet&greet. I WAS THAT CLOSE !!!<br />
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And a photo with the girl that I gave away my ticket. I had extra tho. and she's my fellow shawol friend that we've always talked to each other online.<br />
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and this guy is so cute. I think it's either staff from Roy's agency or his manager.<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-15670843400513022622016-08-03T12:05:00.004+08:002016-08-03T12:05:53.657+08:00He is almighty !<div style="text-align: center;">
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I PASSED MY JUNE 2016 EXAM BOTH P1 AND F8 PAPERS !!!!!!</div>
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I didn't tell you guys how hard they were because i was sooooo scared !!!!!! I just couldn't stop praying to God just to let me pass, even if it's 50% ! Yuppppp got 50% for my P1 !!!!!!</div>
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Abah cried again guys ! My dad's heart is sooooo soft despite of his strict look and personality. ahaha. I love you forever abah. </div>
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It was a beautiful and breezy morning of 18th July. Despite being hella nervous, I was just enjoying the day because it was Taemin's birthday ! I woke up and sent my sister to the train station at 6 a.m because I wanted to use her car. Back home, prayed subuh and did laundry in the morning. Ran downstairs to bid my nephew to school (he stop whinning when he saw garbage truck. what are you son? xD) I thought of waiting for dhuha because MY PLAN was to pray dhuha, taubat and read Quran before I check my result. Plus, my friend mistakenly tweeted that the result will be released at 5 a.m UK time so it will be noon in local time. I was just being relaxed for a moment.</div>
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A message came in at 7 a.m++ I was randomly swipe it from the lockscreen so that it opened the message right away BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS A MESSAGE FROM CELCOM, My eyes were calmy running through the words (i thought it was celcom seriously!!)</div>
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"Session June 2016. Reg ID xxxxxx ...... Pass... Pass"</div>
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"ALLAHUAKBAR !!!!", I screamed. </div>
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Ran downstairs for homeline phone to call my parents. They thought it was my sister. So my dad was like "i knew it was you kakak". "no abah it's me, wo !" "oh wo. i thought it was kakak. yes wh--" "I passed both !!!!!!!!!" And his voice broke into tears right away! "wo, hold on (with broken voice) i want to sujud syukur" /10 seconds of silent/ And that's how my phone call this morning. Suprisingly I didn't cry !! Because I opened the text without any expectation. Sigh I did not even bismillah first.</div>
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I couldn't stop thanking Allah the almighty. Eventhough I have so many sins towards Him, He still granted my doa. Allah, He is ar-rahman the merciful, ar-rahim the beneficient, As-sami' the listener of all. And This is all also thanks to my family for praying for me as well. That gave me strength words when I need it.</div>
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4 more professional papers left - let's do this !!!!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-50555553675095172602016-07-01T06:50:00.001+08:002016-07-01T06:50:26.398+08:00What a morning !<div style="text-align: center;">
Assalamualaykum and salam subuh everyone. </div>
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Another month flipped in this year. We are halfway in 2016 already ! Can you believe it ??? What a morning for me in this 1st July that I have to blog this right away so that I could flashback to this in future.</div>
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It's friday and my parents went to the mosque as usual. The unusual thing is, my lil brother, my second brother and his wife and also their daughter, my niece followed them as well ! Leaving me who is having a period (yes guys it came after I wrote the previous post -,-) with my sleeping nephew. </div>
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I didn't go to sleep after sahur this morning, I switched on my brother's laptop to continue my drama from last night. JUST WHEN I'M ABOUT TO WATCH IT, heard a footstep coming down the stairs. It's my nephew waking up in such early morning looking for his mom and dad (oh. my. God!!). But he's a big boy that I just have to be honest saying that they went to pray and asked if he wants a milk. He nodded while being half-awake. I told him to lay down in the room down here while patiently waiting for my delicious made milk.</div>
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Then he asked for HIS MOM's phone. I told him that his mom took it with her and asked if he wants to watch youtube. He wanted to watch hulksmash while drinking the milk. So I hold my phone for him to watch while patting his leg. I told him to go to sleep after he finished drinking his milk. Then, he was coughing and coughing. I thought it would stop there. Guess what happened ? HE VOMITED !! Oh mannnn. And i couldn't find any napkins. (Sorry my sil. need to wash the bedsheet again hehe)</div>
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I told him that I wanted to take off his shirt. He insisted at first, but then he said okay. While taking off his shirt, he suddenly screamed at me. I thought he didn't want to take it off, but hmmm such a bad aunt for doing it wrongly. Then i wanted to wear him another shirt but he insisted ! OH GOD You gonna catch cold baby ! </div>
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Now, he was sleeping in the leaving room, without wearing a shirt. And he asked for his parents. I told him, "sleep first, when you wake up, papa and mama will comeback". Thank God he went to sleep! phew.</div>
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I hope he sleeps until all of them are back from visiting my grandparents' grave. (I want to go there too :[ )</div>
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By the way, another dugaan for me, my laptop screen suddenly showed a thin white horizontal line. I just wanna cry :(((</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-73915378071722856832016-06-28T01:40:00.000+08:002016-06-28T01:40:10.260+08:00Depression<div style="text-align: justify;">
My friend, marsya retweeted about depression from the twt rakyat twitter account. It hit me very, very hard. I had a hard time back during the study weeks. We had a month of study weeks, so I've been locking myself at the study table for the whole month until exam days. Remember my last post about me calling my mom ? It was during that week where I had the hardest.</div>
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Here the infos I extracted from the tweets;</div>
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<li style="text-align: justify;">It affects how you feel - miserable, guilt, anger, hopelessness, helplessness, emptiness, worthlessness -<i> yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes</i></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.26px; line-height: 32px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="background-color: white; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Loss of interest - <i>yes (especially in my die hard kpop)</i></span></span></span></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;">Loss of drive and motivation -<i> yes</i></span></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.26px; line-height: 32px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="background-color: white; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Difficulty in making decisions -<i> always</i></span></span></span></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.26px; line-height: 32px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="background-color: white; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Poor concentration and loss of memory - <i>VERY</i></span></span></span></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.26px; line-height: 32px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="background-color: white; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Becoming angry, aggressive - <i>yes</i></span></span></span></li>
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<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Fatigue, easily tired - <i>i think ?</i></span></span></li>
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<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Change in sleeping pattern -<i> because i sleep late</i></span></span></li>
<li style="text-align: justify;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.26px; line-height: 32px; text-align: start; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="background-color: white; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Self-hate, self-blame, guilt -<i> yes, yes, yes</i></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px; white-space: pre-wrap;">A guy quoted the tweet saying,<span style="background-color: white;">"</span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #292f33; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 22px; white-space: pre-wrap;">It pisses me more when it is assumed that it is a spiritual defect aka 'you don't pray enough'". </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #292f33; line-height: 22px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">That's what my sister always said to me whenever I texted her that I was having a hard time. But I'm taking it in a good way, on what she said and I accepted her advice. (She should stop replying me with '-.-' in every single reply tbh. sighh)</span></span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251603373991556039.post-34270845889989919882016-06-24T23:44:00.001+08:002016-06-24T23:45:30.403+08:00The last 10 nights<div style="text-align: center;">
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It's 20 ramadhan guys !! the last 10 nights of ramadhan. How fast time flies :( Feels like for the past 20 days, all I have been doing was studying for the first 3 days of ramdhan, playing, watching korean dramas, watching kpop and shows, playing with my nephews and niece, and mostly sleeping. Eversince I back home, I have been slacking off in reading the Quran. And the worst is, I either sleep from morning till noon or from noon until late evening. There's no in between. </div>
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But for the last 10 days, I want to make my ramadhan to the fullest, not leaving with any regrets. I have to write this, in order for me to discipline myself. </div>
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<li style="text-align: justify;">To perform the solat sunat before and/or after solat wajib</li>
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<li style="text-align: justify;">To read al-Quran for 4-6 pages AT LEAST after subuh and/or maghrib</li>
<li style="text-align: justify;">To reduce watching korean and reduce in using swearing words (fangirling problem)</li>
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May Allah guide us in seeking for him in this month and May Allah bless and accept our ibadah. Have a nice ramadhan ahead, my silent readers. </div>
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